*my mind at 3:00 am*
Next blog post should be about....okay make a mental note to write it down later today. Okay, what time are you gonna work on this assignment if you have a meeting at 12:00 pm, agh but wait you also have an important phone call at 1:00pm. Maybe I should change my logo, and post something different on social media. Did I remember to submit that assignment? aghhhhh why am I doing this again? Should I skip class and work on other things? I need to apply for more internships...ghgahgjghdgdj!
*falls back asleep at 6:00 am*
Welcome to my brain after hours lol! These are the thoughts I literally have at three in the morning, and that's not even half of them. My brain never shuts off, and I don't know how to make it. It's either I wake up in the middle of the night, or I go to bed late. I didn't realize this was part of the deal when I decided on creating a platform. If I knew, I would've reconsidered lol! Nah, but actually I really love what I do. Despite, me trying to figure out how to shut my brain off during the night, I have grown to appreciate my thoughts. I love that I'm always coming up with new ideas, I love being motivated, I love feeling the rush of creativity, I love every minute of being a creative and a working entrepreneur. This is how i envisioned my future, and it's all finally coming to life.
I'm not going to sit here and lie like this is easy, or that there aren't times I don't want to quit... because I do. It's hard. It comes with late nights, busy schedules, running around, tears, anxiety..the whole shabang and then some. However, it also comes with the feeling of accomplishment, and pure joy... a feeling we all long for. However, this time its you providing that feeling for yourself. Imagine how rewarding it feels to create something that you love and put so much work into, and to receive appreciation from it. To know that others are learning from your craft, and are motivated by it....is everything.
Not only do I love what I do, but I love seeing others around me doing well. I love knowing the hard work they put into their craft and seeing the acknowledgment they get for it. Being around other creatives and entrepreneurs is not only rewarding, but it serves as a motivation for me. When they acknowledge me, it only pushes me to be better. They understand the process, and the work it takes...they understand what you guys may not see. You guys see the finished product, but not behind the scenes action...the blood, sweat, and tears. In fact, just for me to create a single blog post takes me quite a bit. It takes me roughly around a couple days to write a blog post and two hours to proofread it. This is because I'm a perfectionist and I want the tone and everything to be precise. It's also because sometimes I doubt myself, and I let the post sit there until I feel like I'm ready to share it with you guys.
Another factor is my lack of consistency. Consistency is something I have been working on, and it's not easy. With being a full-time student, working, being a blogger, an entrepreneur, and just being a young adult in general and wanting a social life ..its hard. It's extremely hard to find that balance, and I want to take the time out to commend myself because I don't do it a lot. I want to thank myself for putting more of a balance in my life and allowing time for rest. Obviously, one thing I'm struggling with is sleep, and I'm working on that, but hey it's what comes with this life that I chose, and am choosing.
Before I end this post, I just want to leave a few keynotes. For anyone that has an idea or a dream... stop waiting for the perfect time. This doesn't mean you shouldn't plan and you should throw yourself into something you aren't ready for. This means to start preparing. Write it out, research, network, and then take it from there. Dreams don't come true unless you put the work in. I work day and night on my ideas, and I'm always finding ways to improve and adjust them because I want them to be great! I want you guys to enjoy and find use of what I create. I have so much in stores that I can't wait to share with you guys, so please be patient with me.
" It will take time, effort, blood, sweat, and tears, but I will get there."
I will, and you will too. I want to give a quick shout out to a couple of ladies that have been working extremely hard and have been an inspiration to me these past few weeks. My girl Dejah Davis, the CEO of Too Much Cupcakes and Jaya Bolden CEO of MakeupByJayaStudio, and Curator of Beauty and The Beat Brunch. I see the effort you guys put in because it shows in the work you put out. I know this isn't easy, but you guys are killing it.
With love and Support,