It's a real one's birthday!!!! Happy 6 months to my love, RBLT!!!! I can't believe it! I can't believe how far we have come. I created you on a whim. I created you without doubt, or fear. I created you in the heat of the moment, and I will never regret it.
As I write this my heart is filled with pure joy. I never would've imagined creating you 6 months ago, but I did. Something in me knew I was ready for this chapter of my life. I'd be lying if I said I didn't have doubts or fears before sharing you to the world. However, it wasn't because I was embarrassed by you. I just stopped believing in myself a bit. I was scared people wouldn't see the beauty and hard work that I put into you. Someone did though, and if it weren't for them....I'm not sure we'd be here right now.
They made me think, they made me question myself. They sat me down and asked, "Why are you doubting yourself?" Of course, I had no response other than "I don't know." To which they replied, " You have a great thing YOU started. Not me, not anyone else, but YOU. You are doubting yourself." I knew they were right, but it still didn't reach me. My fears were growing bigger than their voice. Until they said," If you feel like you are playing yourself then delete everything you created, and if you can't then you are doubting yourself for no reason." That's when it clicked. When I realized I couldn't bring myself to delete what I curated with my two hands. What I created was everything and more. RBLT allowed me to tap into a part of me that had been dormant for so long. A part of me I forgot existed. However, it was just the beginning.
These past 6 months haven't been easy. Some nights were filled with blank stares at a computer screen. Some were filled with dancing fingers along the keyboard because my thoughts were on fire. Then there were nights, where I would write and just grow frustrated. Stemming from thoughts like, " Am I writing enough content?", " Is the content good enough?", " Who did this post reach?" These are the thoughts that fill my head almost every time I write a post. However, I love it too much to let those thoughts control me.
Choosing love over fear allowed me to run with risk and passion these past 6 months, which was the best decision I've made. RBLT is doing amazing! My email and dm's are filled with positive feedback and I couldn't ask for anything more. I LOVE hearing how it reaches others. At this point, I have accomplished more than I expected to, and I just pray that it will continue to blossom.
For those that are avid readers of my blog posts, I love you and appreciate you so much. For those that just started reading, or read them occasionally, thank you so much! For those that comment, and give me feedback I love you guys!!! Thank you for taking the time out to help me make sure every post is better than the last. Everything you guys give me I put back into my work, and I hope you guys see the improvements.
P.S How should I celebrate this day? What should I get RBLT lol? Comment below or send me a message and let me know!!!